Cupid Thomas (01)3/21/1996 till 3/20/2010
In a goodbye song I found tears that reminded me of you.
I watched your video to have you near, even though it was your last ride. You were so full of life at that moment in time. Tears flowed from my face, I had to fight hard to be strong for us.
Your pain I could not bare, it was hard to hear you cry that last night. I wanted so much to ease your suffering. I cried to my Mike for I did not know what else to do. I held you close , and slept beside you. Your strength was incredible , but this battle seem to worsen and not heal.
Leaving you go was a hard decision, I had to call another with a plan for your funeral. I committed myself to this heart wrenching decision.
I could have cared fro your needs for so many more days. Just that when I touched you only caused you more pain. At times you would be facing another way, and than I would turn around and you had moved to face me. Your desire to be near me was felt deeply by myself. You laid your head on my lap and gave me light kisses, which I was gladly to give back.
When I was letting you go, you wined and moved in the car and told us it was O.K. You were comforting us when uncertainty was at your doorstep.
When you took your last breath I screamed to have you back, I curled up in held on to the blanket and felt completely helpless to my breaking heart. I felt selfish, but the pain of loosing you cut so deep to know I would never hear or feel you again.
The strength and devotion you showed me has helped me deal with the sorrow of letting you go. I am not giving up the love or memories I have of you. You were a big part of my life story, and we shared many special moments together. I know seeing me sad only cause you to worry. So I am letting you know I will be O.K. You showed me how I am supposed to live and now you showed me how to die. I will miss you my son more than any words could ever express. I will see you someday in heaven, and than I will see your tail wag again, bye, bye ...my true friend.