kaysie, the last month and a half has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. the thought of you not being here killed me. so therefore, after the diagnosis of cancer, and your xrays being clear, i felt that surgery was appropriate. the family also felt the same way. we knew the circumstances, good and bad. we only wanted the best for you. this is what god planned for you. the last few days were tough, but you were here, for my birthday, what more could i have asked for? i even got a tail wag out of you. the day you passed, you held your head up, looked around, took your meds like a pro and tried to hold them in. when you took your last breath, i saw your heart still beating, and my mind went blank. i knew. it took a bit to sink in, when it did, i haven't stopped crying. you were so sweet and loving and compliant. everyone fell in love with you. i will never forget the first time i saw you, and felt the love between us, instantly! the spca walk,the whole length of the park and back. the time you went to see santa and jumped on the display table. the time you chewed the $100 bill. how much you loved playing frisbee,and how when you came back,the way you looked so proud cause you got it. how you used to take friends and family gently by the arm and bring them to me. how i used to feel so loved when you slept next to me with your head on my chest. how you would patiently wait for me to come home and have a smile on your face, no matter what, wag your tail in a circle and give me a little woo to show how happy you were to see me. krickette and i will miss how you two would go out on the side of the house and pee together, side by side. now you can stay with nikkie, your sister who we loved so much, and like you, always will. please watch over us, love us and never forget us. you will always be in my heart. like i told trevor,you are an angel watching over us, every day. every time he looks in the sky,and sees a star, its you. i love you baby, i miss you horribly. we were supposed to have more time together. every extra day we had was a blessing. loving you forever..........mommy