Muffy was only 4 1/2 yrs old when she died. She was a beautiful black and white tuxedo cat abandon in a r.v. park where my son was staying. one day I saw her this small kitten and I said to my son catch her if you can and bring her to me. Weeks passed and I continued to ask where is she. He said everywhere she goes from R.V. to R.V. looking for food. I told him next time you see her please try to catch her tell the folks around to help you I want to give her a good home. Then one Sat. afternoon I went over and he had caught her. I was so happy. I brought her home, she ran off, I looked all night for her. The next day I found her kept her in the house for a couple of week. She began to come around to her new home. I let her out again she left again, I looked for days she finally came back after 3 days and never left again. I had her fixed and treated at the animal clinic. She was mine to take care of forever I though we would be together for a long time. But that was not so. She became ill I thought it was asthma or allergies, it was a tumor growing in her chest restricting her airway. The vet said it was unoperable. I took her to the vet hoping I was going to bring her home with medication and she would be fine instead I left with her lifeless body in my grieving arms crying and caressing her ever so closely. I held her while my vet inserted the needle that ended her life I talk to her loved her. Told I was going to take her home to rest in peace. I buried her by my roses so I could always look that way and remember how she loved to climb those tree next to the rose and follow me down to the dock where she loved to hunt for the small fish that came up the creek. That was my Muffy full of life alway following me around and sleeping with me by my pillow, she loved me as much as I loved her and I had to end her life. I know it was to end her suffering but I feel awful about it and feel guilty about doing it. I want her back I want my furry baby back. I hope in time I will heal and remember only the happy time we had together and not the suffering she went through trying to breath. I LOVE YOU MUFFY I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN IN HEAVEN.