As i child i always wanted my own pet, either a cat or a dog,or a mouse, whenever i asked, it was always the same answer, that i couldn't keep my room tidy, so i wasn't responsible enough.

Years later when i got married, i had told my husband about it, and one happy amazing day, he got me my very own kitten, i named her Bonnie.

We soon found out, Bonnie wasn't any ordinary cat, she had a real fire in her, she was loving, but was more like a dog, she would growl more than meow, and would protect our home, she scratched various visitors, and was a real tough little thing. many people who came to visit throughout the years have been quite afraid of our boo.

Even huge 6 foot tall men were afraid, Bonnie was unique, she terrorized many a vet, some still have the scars to prove it!

Along the way, we acquired two more cats, Tallulah and Fidget,but Bonnie did not let them come into the home easily, it took many, many years for her to accept that they live here too.

Bonnie was always the number one, she made that clear.

So the reason i am posting this, just a couple of days ago, our beautiful baby went away to cat heaven, she had been ill for a while, and was 16 years and approx 3 months, i have to say i have never known such pain existed. we have all cried so much, and still find it hard to believe, even imagine that she has really passed on.

Bonnie was my friend, my comfort, my everything, and as much as i had tried to prepare myself, knowing this day was not far off, as she got sicker, and the vets said there was nothing more that could be done, i had my heart ripped out and a part of me died with her that sorrowful day.

My husband tells me that this pain is as bad as when his own mother passed away, and that should tell you something, so when anyone is ignorant of the pain, saying its just a pet, then i can say, they just don't know...

My dear baby is at peace now, no more vets, no more pain, needles or tablets, she can be running around and having fun with all the other beautiful cats that have left this world for a better place.

I have prayed to God to keep her safe for me now, and know that she will never be forgotten, my memories will be with me always in my heart, for she was worth the wait as a child when my parents wouldn't let me have my own pet, and my life would not have been the same without her in it.

Rest in peace my darling Bonnie Boo, i will always love you and always miss you
xxx