may 30,2011, was the day i had to put my beloved dog star(aka)fatmamma,down to rest, she was my everything.she was 14 years old, an now i just dont know where to go from here,my life is just not the same. i find myself doing the same routine, everyday looking for her, missing her laying next to me in bed at night,hogging all of the covers, and the bed,coming home for lunch to check-up on her. and shes just not here. she was a protecter, a baybsitter, a friend, and sometimes my doctor, when i was feeling under the weather, she never left my side. im not sure if this is a story, or what because its only been one day without her, but if feels like a lifetime already, i just need and want only her for just 1 more day, and it hurts because i cant have her. we see our children and grandchildren grow up everyday around us and we think to ourselves wow they are growing up so fast.Then you see your pet and for some reason you dont even imagine that they too are getting older, till one day you see spots of gray,an you think oh,shes just getting alittle older, but in your mind you dont realize just how much. i started to believe that she would outlive me, even convinced myself of this,but that just wasnt the case. i feel cheated,betrayed, and hurt, not by her but by time itself, maybe if i had realized just how old she was getting, then maybe i wouldnt feel the way i do today.this isnt really a story or a poem, its just me saying how i feel about my best friend, baby,and other half of my heart that has passed on.